Leah's dream about Jeff

It was a day where I was frustrated with Jeff and how he chose to leave this life, how his choices were making such an impact on not only his siblings, wife and parents, but also his poor innocent nephews (namely Miles). I was frustrated that he would do this to them, which made me think more and more about how "easy" Jeff got off (or so I thought). That led me to ask myself why am I even trying so hard to do what is right. Why did I try so hard to what is right and continue to struggle in this life?

That night I has a very vivid dream about him. I was sitting cross legged on the floor of a room full of people who were all standing and visiting with one another. I didn't seem to be part of anyone's conversations. I looked up a bit and saw Jeff standing talking to a person that was like a Bishop type figure. He seemed to be up a few stairs or something because I could see him very easily above the other people standing around. I watched him for a minute and then he looked at me. His eyes pierced my soul. They were so crystal blue and sparkly. Everything about his being and countenance was beautiful. He seemed to bright, so full of love, so full of PEACE. I dont remember if he had hair of what he was wearing other than he seemed to be so much brighter than anyone else who was around. Krystal was standing next to him. They were holding hands. I do remember she was wearing black. Jeff came down to my left and saw his bothers Ryan and Rick - he grabbed both of them at the same time and gave them an enormous hug while just sobbing the words, "I am soooo sorry". I remember looking around and getting a little upset because Jeremy wasn't there - and I thought that Jeff needed to apologize to Jeremy too. (in my dream). I was so touched by Jeff's sincere and very remorseful apology. After that I remember talking to Krystal (in my dreambut not much of what was said of important about that conversation.

I have prayed to know that the state in which I saw Jeff is the state in which he is in now (that of beauty, light, love and peace) and I have had a strong confirmation! I'm sorry I let my feelings of frustration get the best of me that day. It was like Jeff was showing me that he was soooooo sorry. BUT that he is peaceful and home with the Savior. I love you Jeff and I forgive you!